Openness is an honorable goal, right?
To me, courage means not being controlled by my fear. I may fear openness, but I can still be open. I can refused to be controlled.
…according to a recent dream, I must also use common sense.
In the dream…
I’m alone in the house in the middle of the night.
I stand by the door to the garage. The door knob twists slowly, ever so slightly, this way and that, as if someone wants inside.
I wait, but no one opens the door.
I go to the front door. Through the door window, I see a white car parked sideways in the driveway. I wait, but no one appears.
I open the door a bit, then close it. I don’t know what to do.
If this situation occurred in my waking life, I’d know exactly what to do—I’d call 911, then find a big stick for protection.
But the above scenario is a dream. No one can actually harm me. So then, shouldn’t I challenge my fear? Shouldn’t I go ahead, fling the door open and face whoever/whatever lurks in the dark?
However, this dream, like any dream, reflects my waking life. This dream reflects a problem in my waking life…
So any solution to my dream problem should be something I’d use in my waking life.
In waking life, to open myself to an unseen stranger—especially one acting so suspiciously—would be foolish.
In the dream, I’m afraid, but feel I should not react in a fearful manner. I feel I should be open. I should be courageous.
But that goes against all common sense. As a result, I’m frozen; I’m stuck in an inner conflict.
So then, should I call the cops in this dream? Should I rely on outside help?
Actually, I would be calling on my own inner cop to establish some authority. So I’m relying on myself. I just need to use the good version of this cop, not the bad.
The good cop acts judiciously. He doesn’t use force, unless absolutely necessary. On the other hand, the bad cop reacts—attacks—and asks questions later, if at all.
So…I’ve done some good work on this dream…But the question remains who/what does that night visitor represent?
It doesn’t have to represent something outside myself—it could be an inner aspect…After all, I’ve often been ambushed by unknown shadowy aspects of myself.
Or perhaps it speaks to my life experience in general…
Maybe the best answer is: all three. That is: the night stranger represents something outside me…something within me…and the circumstances of my life, in general.
In any case, this paralyzing scenario actually contains some good news. The desire to be open is a part of me now. I don’t want to be stopped by my fear.
I just need to remember: if I pull up short when a situation doesn’t seem right…
…that doesn’t make me a fraidy cat. Just smart.
© 2013, Michael R. Patton
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