In this time of looking back…
…of trying to assess the past year…
…I’m considering why 2011 wasn’t much of a “big dream year” for me.
Yes, I remembered dreams. Yes, I wrote those dreams down. I also went into a few of them and unveiled to myself some obvious secrets about myself—so obvious, that I’d missed them.
Nevertheless, this activity was not at the same intense level as in the last decade, especially the time between 2003-2009.
But that’s okay. I don’t see what I doing now as “avoidance”. I see it as healthy—as an attempt to create more balance in my life…
One can do good work in a cave, but there comes a time to step back out into the light of day.
In her book Dancing in the Flames, therapist Marion Woodman tells of people going through periods of deep inner examination, and then turning their attention back out, focusing again on the demands of the world outside the cave.
However, I didn’t fully emerge from the cave in 2011…
In the process of moving my blog from MSN Spaces to WordPress, I reconsidered many old dreams—which really weren’t so old. Problems shown to me in 2003 were often still with me in 2011…
At least now, because of the dreams—and my work done on them—I’m more aware of those problems.
So, I’m not discouraged. Besides, I’ve learned from my dreams that some struggles will be lifetime projects.
But these old dreams became current in another way as well: as I reconsidered them, I gained new insight. Sometimes this new insight seemed so obvious! Yet I’d missed it the first time ’round.
I’d planned to transfer the old material directly to the new site. Instead, I ended up rewriting each and every entry. As far as I was concerned, I had no other choice now.
But it was well worth the effort. I needed to make the knowledge gained from these dreams more a part of me—more a part of my conscious thought. I also needed a “summing up”—a summing up of a period of intense inner work.
So in one way, 2011 wasn’t an active year for me in terms of dreams…but in another way, it was extremely active.
© 2011, Michael R. Patton
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