Downton Abbey Reruns

pink pattern - February 1, 2013d
 

At best, I recall just a fraction of what I dream each night…

But maybe I’m not missing so much—if some recent sickbed dreams are any indication…

For three long tedious nights, a flu bug kept me half-awake while I dreamt…

Not a pleasant state, even when my dreams took me to the palatial manor of the TV series Downton Abbey.

In the sequence of “Downton Abbey” dreams…

Characters keep going here and there, moving in pairs.  They chat as they stroll across the wide expanse of grounds.

It all seems pleasant enough; however, the characters never really arrive anywhere.  They‘re trying to work out certain situations, but in each case, nothing comes of their efforts.

I felt such frustration, watching that dream repeat itself, again and again, over the course of a night.

Maybe if I hadn’t been running a fever, I could’ve consciously worked to complete some of that business while in the dream state…

On the other hand, if I’d been feeling better, I probably would’ve slept through those scenes.

That first night was followed by two more nights of agitated sleep.  Each night featured its own repetitive dream scenario.  In these scenes, I’d work hard to resolve a particular problem.  But despite my efforts, I never felt satisfied with the results.

So maybe that’s how my dreams often run: each night, I focus on a certain problem or a related set of problems…

I run through that night’s conflict, again and again, trying to arrive at some resolution…but more often than not, I fall short.

Doesn’t sound very encouraging, does it?

However, though I didn’t arrive at any solutions during those three nights of dreaming…

…I kept working, kept struggling—I never gave up, I never conceded failure.

So, if dreams are an accurate portrayal of my waking life, I should actually take some encouragement from these frustrating scenarios.  These dream scenarios show my resilience, my determination.

Perhaps they also show a little stubbornness.  Well…it’s good that I know.

© 2013, Michael R. Patton
sky rope poetry

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About Michael Patton

I am a poet, novelist, and fabulist...A new mythologist, a peace miller, a dream worker...I don't qualify as an illustrator or photographer--I just "make pictures"...I have thirteen books available at amazon... I currently reside in northwest Arkansas, but have lived and worked all over the United States... I'm self-taught, for the most part--which is like searching for the right door in the dark. It's an on-going process.... I don't want to write MY story, I want OUR story, so that's what I'm studying: the human story: past, present, future, in its many aspects--including the spiritual. I'm proceeding at a slow crawl.... I don't see the inner world and outer world as separate. By learning about myself, I learn about others, I learn about my world.... Conversely, as I struggle to understand what I see OUT THERE, I learn about myself.... But to be clear: I don't claim any special understanding. I'm still purblind, still only half-awake.... After frustrating experience with the publisher of my first novel, I've published on my own, beginning with e-books, with plans to move into print and audio. Even video.... Along with a second novel, I've now published eight books of poetry. Each poetry book focuses on a theme. For instance, the collection GLORIOUS TEDIOUS TRANSFORMATION is about the slow difficult wonderful process of change.... In that book, as with all my work, I try to be accessible to a general audience, while also striving to achieve a certain literary quality.
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