Be careful of change for change’s sake…
So says a recent dream…
In the dream:
I’m preparing to move. At my new apartment building, I won’t actually have a room—just a bed in an open hallway.
So, I’m having second thoughts. However, I’ve already put down a deposit. And that’s not my only expenditure—I’ve also paid for a community college course. But do I really need that class?
Maybe I can cancel both the move and the course and get some of my money back.
This dream wouldn’t seem to relate to my current life. Yes, there’s the desire for change—an impulse to shake things up a bit. But I’m not in the process of making any moves, big or small, at present.
Maybe the dream is looking into the future and telling me: be careful. You want to be more open. But in so doing, you could go too far.
Yes, sleeping in a hallway would be extreme. But what’d be the harm of enrolling in a class?
Let me be clear: I don’t take the message literally. The course could represent any learning experience in a structured group setting…
At this point, I’m reminded of group experiences from my past. Though some of these experiences have been good, so often I’ve felt disappointed, frustrated. Too often, I’ve felt confined. Restricted to a certain role. And so, I’ve usually chosen the freedom of being on my own. But here’s the paradox: that freedom can limit me in other ways.
So, whether I enroll or cancel, there’s a cost.
I’ve read: our dreams never give us answers to the problems they reveal. I’m not sure if that’s always true…
…but I can see why this dream can’t answer the question it presents:
The problem in the dream is a problem I’ll likely encounter many times in the future. And each time, the situation will be somewhat different. So the answer won’t always be the same.
But for the present and the immediate future, I see myself going my own way. Yes, I want to be more open. I want to connect. But I can do that without being stuck in a “class”.
Right now, I’m not willing to pay that cost, just for the sake of change.
© 2018, Michael R. Patton
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